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How to be awesome at everything

From this article by Jonah Lehrer about some uber-prodigy 13 year old Swedish chess grandmaster:

And this is why we shouldn’t be surprised that a chess prodigy raised on chess computer programs would be even more intuitive than traditional grandmasters. The software allows him to play more chess, which allows him to make more mistakes, which allows him to accumulate experience at a prodigious pace.

So what’s the lesson, regarding whatever thing you do, or whatever you want to do? Whatever is important to you?

Do a lot of finished work. Don’t worry so much about great work, brilliant work, groundbreaking work. Finish stuff. The end.

Oh my lord

Some of you might have already seen this, but seriously, it makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time.

I swear to god it’s an absolute wonder this country isn’t ten times as fucked up as it is.

This is what I finally decided, too

My favorite quote from all those David Eddings books were from the without-a-doubt best character, Silk, who would periodically say: “I didn’t make the world, xx, I just try to live in it.” I stole this quote with such alacrity that some of you probably think I made it up. Sorry about that.

Anyway, this quote, from a great series of essays, captures the mental nook where I have come to rest.

Long ago I stopped expecting ‘the world as such’ and ’society as a whole’ to provide solutions for me on a silver plate. The only sensible strategy is an eclectic path to define quality of life for yourself, and use all tools in whatever customized fashion to forge your path. In other words: the planet is in shambles, but you can try to help and still carve out a meaningful, peaceful & happy existence on it.

The Internet is the epitome of that concept: barely in its infancy, in a deplorable state between ‘not quite there yet’ and ‘already half fallen apart’, unruly chaos, ugly, confused, appealing to the worst base instincts, but: you can use it in entirely unprecedented ways to enhance your life ambitions, with more choices, options and knowledge than any crowned heads in history.

Defeatist? Kinda. Sad? I suppose. But sad with a bottom. Is that maturity? Cowardice? Dunno. Don’t care. I didn’t make the world, guys. But I have to live in it as best I can.

This makes it all worthwhile

In 2003, apparently, I wrote an Amazon review for an audiobook. I had forgotten both the book and the review until this morning, when I got an update that some random person had commented on it. You can read the original post and the comment here.

Seriously, I can’t tell you how much this brightened my day. It’s weird, awesome (in the literal sense) and sad, all at once, to think about the power you have to make somebody feel great, by doing very very little. And how often you choose to not exercise this power.

But then, how easy it would be to change that. (Let’s end on an optimistic note.)

Grant

I wrote my first grant proposal the other day, for funding for next year. It would be a pretty big deal to get it, not because it’s super prestigious or anything (it isn’t) but because it would mean that instead of essentially working three jobs, I’d only have to work 1.5 jobs.

Here it is, for your edification. An interesting nugget is that this handful of words took a god-awful amount of time to write. I could have written five stories in the same amount of time. Hopefully that will get easier with experience.

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Overview

Why do we like the things we like? We prefer certain paintings to others; music and literary critics expound at length on what makes work X superior to work Y, often against popular opinion; and all of us have had the pleasant frisson of finally figuring out where the oddly-shaped puzzle piece fits. We have strong affective feelings about a wide range of stimuli, for no obvious reason. Why is this?

It’s not surprising that people have been trying to formulate a rationale for aesthetic preferences since Aristotle. Sometimes they agree on general principles, often they do not; and the candidate explanations are either topic-specific or else too vague to operationalize. But what if a single quantifiable mechanism undergirded these disparate pleasurable phenomena, from simple aesthetic valuation (like appreciating a Magritte painting) to more abstract pleasure (like finally figuring out a calculus problem?)

They say there’s no accounting for taste, but I think they’re wrong.

Research goals

The discovery of mu-opioid receptors in the parahippocampus (a principal associational ‘mixing area’ at the end of the visual pipeline), and the research that has followed that discovery, motivates a powerful idea: we get a particular chemical reward when we find patterns in the world that hit a sweet spot between predictable and chaotic. The ‘sweet spot’ comes from parahippocampal neurons that have, via competitive learning, come to code for specific patterns of visual stimuli, but whose codes have not become so ‘overfit’ through experience that spurious activity has been eliminated. Stimuli that are ‘understood’ by the population code result in an opioid rush proportional to the neural engagement, even as environmental regularities rev-down the neural (and opioid) response.

To this point the idea has been developed perceptually; but neuroanatomical and clinical evidence suggests that, far from being particular to late visual cortex, this ‘drive-to-pattern’ is fully general, and that it transcends perception and intrudes into more abstract (and purely cognitive) domains. If this is true, then we can adapt statistical coding models from perception, combine it with the mathematical formulations of information theory and knowledge-representation theories from cognitive science, and test whether generalized cognitive pleasure (CP) is subject to the same principles that characterize affect from visual scenes.

Research Plan

There is an extensive memory literature on serial and sequence learning that could be fit to the CP paradigm. The idea is this: a subject is presented with a stream of symbols, generated according to a context-free grammar. The subject’s task would be to discover ‘legal’ patterns from within the symbol stream, collapsing it as the patterns are induced. Each successful ‘collapse’ should reward the subject above what would happen in a control task featuring randomly-generated symbols; we predict that subjects would voluntarily spend more time on the task with symbol streams generated by inductable grammars. Further, we might expect differential results from subjects given ‘hints’ about the top-level structure of the grammar, vs. those given hints about bottom-up structure; and a host of variations on this theme.

To go beyond the rather simple sequence task described above, we need a way to generate a test corpus whose statistical characteristics can be altered to reflect patterns of differing complexity, and which can be extended into domains more sophisticated than streams of amodal symbols. Further, we need a way to quantify collected data in terms of the latent structure inherent in it. Fortunately, I have a head start on this task: last semester I implemented a machine learning system for hierarchical topic modeling using Latent Dirichlet Allocation. Adapting this LDA solution for the CP domain would allow us to generate pattern-laden stimuli in a host of modalities, from visual patterns, to musical compositions, and even text segments. We could use these stimuli as source data for the sorts of experiments described above, as well as for more ambitious experiments.

My advisors’ unique strengths will be put to use throughout this process of theoretical formulation and experimental design. For instance, the memory of chess masters for legal vs. illegal chess board configurations demonstrates that pattern recognition and memory are inextricably linked; and the CP model, which is deeply tied to pattern recognition, has much to gain from these results. Wilma Koutstaal’s encyclopedic knowledge of the memory and learning domain has already proven an invaluable resource in my literature review, and her suggestions of which results might be re-purposed to address the question of CP have been a great help even at this early stage. Further, our work on my first year project on the neural correlates of abstract vs. concrete semantics suggests several obvious next steps once the preliminary proof-of-concept work already discussed is finished.

Paul Schrater’s expertise in pattern recognition and mathematical modeling finds natural expression in the information-theoretic formulation of CP, and his current work on ‘aspiration’ uses some of the same statistical modeling techniques I propose to use for data generation and analysis. Much of Paul’s work involves how perception of regularity in the environment alters behavior, and insight from those results will inform my experimental design from a computational standpoint much as Wilma’s insight will inform it from a memory perspective. Further, Paul’s knowledge of both computer and biological vision will be critical in extending the symbolic presentation protocols of the first experiments into the image domain.

My wish-list for experiments past those described here are too numerous to list. The chief power of the CP idea is that results from disparate areas that can be stated in information-theoretic terms are suddenly amenable to analysis. Which means CP could bridge, experimentally, theories of higher-order cognition, perception, and aesthetics that have thus far been considered distinct islands of inquiry.

Obama to Republicans

Obama goes before a bunch of Republicans and takes questions and gives answers here. These days it’s easy to slip back into thinking the American political process is horribly broken, and will always stay broken. And maybe it will. Because I can’t fathom how such a reasonable approach, such a good attitude, and such a clear and practical vision, could meet with the results it’s currently meeting with.

In other words: if a guy stands up and says: I want to be reasonable. We need to actually work on stuff instead of trying to ‘win’, and here’s a bunch of examples of that. And the response to this plea is the same sort of idiotic point-scoring and grandstanding — then I don’t know what more can be done. If you have somebody smart, civil, and reasonable, and you find the response to intelligence and civility and reasonableness is just running into a fucking wall over and over, well, maybe it’s true. Maybe nothing better than what we currently have is possible.

Still, this Q&A video is inspiring, if only in the sense that you probably sometimes think, as I do: why can’t somebody be elected president who’s not a complete fucktard, who actually has a modicum of sense, a modicum of articulateness? Why can’t somebody get elected who’s at least as competent as I am?

For better or worse, that person has been elected. You can watch him action at the link above. Enjoy him while he’s here.

Jerks and women

Clay Shirkey wrote a blog post that people are talking about. Succinctly, it’s about how men are generally more assertive, self-promoting, and annoying than women are, and how that disparity might put women at a disadvantage.

It’s tempting to imagine that women could be forceful and self-confident without being arrogant or jerky, but that’s a false hope, because it’s other people who get to decide when they think you’re a jerk, and trying to stay under that threshold means giving those people veto power over your actions. To put yourself forward as someone good enough to do interesting things is, by definition, to expose yourself to all kinds of negative judgments, and as far as I can tell, the fact that other people get to decide what they think of your behavior leaves only two strategies for not suffering from those judgments: not doing anything, or not caring about the reaction.

This reminds me of something Peaches said once. We were talking about writing and arrogance, and he said: “Anyone who thinks they have something so important to say that it has to be written down is at least a little bit arrogant.”

I’ve thought about that quote a lot over the years; I can’t remember if I agreed or not at the time, but I agree now, so much so that I’m on board with Shirkey — sometimes it’s important to be a jerk, to think you’re better than other people, to think that you Kick Ass. It’s important because thinking those things will help you keep going when self-doubters would quit; and it’s important because a lot of times in life people will take their cues from you. If you say you are awesome, then who am I to disagree?

(Of course, my personal reaction when I run into these people is to think they’re annoying jackasses, so whatever positive effect might be achieved is more than balanced out. But I don’t think I’m representative.)

The other issue, of course, is whether the advantages of jerkiness will continue to be true. If jerks have all the power then maybe doing whatever will advance your cause with jerks is the optimal strategy; but times are a-changing, and women and non-jerks are rich and powerful, too, though not in as great of numbers. You could do an interesting model of this as a differential equation, and I’m confident under certain parameters having low-jerkiness would be better. The only question is whether those parameters are realistic.

Anyone, the article’s worth a read if you have a minute.

Cultural ratchet

I just wrote a long, rambly post on evolutionary anthropology and the cultural ratchet, then deleted it all except for this line, which I will keep because it really says everything:

If your girlfriend lights your hair on fire and the police ask you what happened and you launch into a chemistry lesson on oxidation then you are highly educated but you are also a dumbass.

Hopefully you feel enlightened now.

Social stuff

A Bayesian Network is, in a nutshell, a way of describing relationships between things in a probabilistic way. For example: someone might say that if I finish my novel Cloudytown then the world will end with probability .5. Okay, that’s an idiotic example, but if you take a gander at the link you might get the idea.

Bayes nets are nice because the process for creating them mimics the process by which people think about the world. We think that X and Y cause Z, and Z causes Q, which is also caused, a little bit, by X. You can not only represent that exactly with a Bayes net, but you can do inference on the resultant distribution, which means you can pose questions and answer them: “Given X and A, what’s the probability of Y?” This requires some extraordinarily complicated math, but conceptually it’s pretty simple.

This matters because last week I tried to decompose my life as a Bayes net, which is just the latest in a long history of self-modeling. It is also probably the most useful, since the causal chaining is clear the way it wasn’t in the rule-based model I wrote about late last summer. In layman’s terms, this means it’s easier to tweak something in your life and see how it would play out. For instance, I can say: if I improved my diet fifty percent, what result would that have on my creative output? And so long as I’ve represented the causal relationships properly, I can have confidence that the answer will be consistent with the axioms of probability. It will be ‘right’ as it is possible to be, given the model.

So in the Bayes net of my life there is, for real, a “diet” node, which is connected to, among others, the “pain” node, the “focus” node, and the “mood” node. The “diet” node is super important, mostly because of chronic pain issues, and the issues that result from the chronic pain issues. But “diet” isn’t the most important node in the Bayes net; it’s “social”, which I defined as the summation of all social influences. Which means that the biggest bang for my buck in making substantive change to my circumstances is to spend a lot of effort on the “social” node.

Which brings me to the purpose of this post: I’m looking to ramp up my social activities, but I want to do it in a way consistent with the rest of the stuff I’m doing. So for example: I want to see you, but I don’t want to go out to lunch or dinner with you, because it’s too damn hard to deal with the dietary restrictions when I’m going out to eat with people all the time. And it’s funny what a huge hole that leaves in my social repertoire — food mediates everything.

But I am very much open to suggestions of things to do, either generally (things you suggest that I should do) or with the people who read this blog. What can we do together? What projects can we undertake? Where could we go? What could we make? And though I won’t go out to lunch or dinner with you, I will come over to your house and make dinner with you; or you can come to mine. But maybe we should make movies; or interview Indians; or something. I dunno. But I can’t be the only person underperforming socially, so help me think of some creative and worthwhile things so that I’m not in a room alone staring at fucking pixels for 90% of my life.

Shitty writing on Slashdot

Sometimes I like to save either super good or super bad writing examples. Here’s one of the latter, which I have ripped off in its entirety:

theodp writes “To power the Tools for America’s Job Seekers Challenge, the US Department of Labor tapped IdeaScale, a subsidiary of Survey Analytics, which is headquartered in Seattle with satellite offices in Nasik, India and Auckland, NZ (PDF). According to the Federal Register (PDF), an Emergency OMB Review was requested to launch the joint initiative of the DOL, White House, and IdeaScale to help out unemployed US workers. A cached Monster.com ad seeks candidates to work on the development and maintenance of ideascale.com, but in India at an annual salary of Rs. 200,000 to 300,000 ($4,4000 to $6,600 US). BTW, an earlier White House-sponsored, IdeaScale-powered Open Government Brainstorm identified legalizing marijuana as one of the best ways to ’strengthen our democracy and promote efficiency and effectiveness.’” There’s no guarantee that Indian workers recruited by that Monster.com ad would work on US Department of Labor projects.

How far do you have to read to figure out wtf it’s talking about? I’ve read through it over and over and I’m still not totally sure about what is being reported. Here’s how I would have written it:

“US Govt. attempts to hire Indians software developers for $6600/yr.”